The rantings of a newborn trying to make it in the city that never sleeps. These are my stories, I do not promise they will be new or interesting, I only promise they will be honest.
Tue
Feb
14
A year from now we’ll all be gone
All our friends will move away
And they’re goin’ to better places
But our friends will be gone away
Nothin’ is as it has been
And I miss your face like hell
And I guess it’s just as well
But I miss your face like hell
Been talkin’ ‘bout the way things change
And my family lives in a different state
If you don’t know what to make of this
Then we will not relate
So if you don’t know what to make of this
Then we will not relate
Rivers and roads
Rivers and roads
Rivers till I reach you
Sun
Jan
29
Today I declared that I am finally unpacked and officially moved into my new place. Over the past 8 months and 8 days I’ve taken time to exorcise my body, mind and spirit and after what felt like countless lessons in patience I am finally settled in. Much time has passed since I have sat down at my keyboard and expressed what is going on in my life. This could be understood as both a positive and a negative. I am not wasting my time brooding over what if’s, or sitting in anxiety over what may come instead I am just living. It also means that I haven’t had time just to sit and organize my thoughts in a digital fashion.
I found myself thinking today about memories and how precious they are. As the years pass me by I find that I am forgetting more memories and events then I am creating. The past can be ensnaring, allowing you to think of better days or time spent with good people, but at the end of the day it is just that, past. The best you can do is be grateful for what blessings you have received and look forward to what the next day will bring.
Lessons learned over the past 8 months really have helped transform me into someone who is more self-aware of his faults. I have miles to go before I can rest, before I can even be considered a good example to others but I’m working on it more each day. As long as I don’t forget the lessons learned I will hopefully not fall back into my old ways.
Family was another theme that kept coming into my mind today. My biological family is still back in NY but thanks to modern day technology like Skype they are never more then a push of a button away. I am not without family here in California though and I am reminded constantly of how much I treasure those family members that surround me. Brothers and Sisters, we all lookout for and care for each other. Good people have a way of finding each other.
In the new year I have been attempting to start each day in the proper mindset. Taking time to exorcise my body, mind and spirit before I step foot into world. I am more and more grateful and appreciative of what I have been blessed with. Each morning I celebrate my job when so many are still seeking, a space I can call my own and family who can help fill up both the space and my life.
